Preggo

I guess it's time to let my bloggy friends know that I've made it past week 13 of this pregnancy. If you are disgruntled at not knowing before now, get on FB more often, and if you're not on FB, get over it. I'm not going to waste my time announcing to everyone that I'm 6 weeks pregnant only to have to remember who I told, then track down everyone when the pregnancy ends spectacularly ugly-like. Btw, I'm in a mood today, sorry. And this was supposed to be such a nice happy post. Sorry again.

Anyways, we hit 13 weeks about Tuesday, which means we'll be out of the first trimester early next week. We also had a visit from our Midwife, who I love, but I'm not sure if we'll keep her since she lives a good 40 minutes away, and it would be silly to pay all that money if she can't even make the birth on time (the last midwife only made it with 11 minutes to spare, and her office was next door to the hospital!). Also since this labor will probably be quite fast (and a host of other reasons too numerous to discuss right now), we are aiming for a home birth, which makes our choice of providers a short list. Point was: we got to hear a heartbeat, in the 150s. I should be past worrying now, right? But for some reason I am still on pins and needles. I can't wait for the quickening, and I have a daily reminder that this baby is alive and well. I imagine I will appreciate those rib jabs much more with this one.

Overall, I am a hormonal roller-coaster. I'm too tired to do much, and I'm lonely. I haven't been to all 3 hours of church in over a month, yet noone has called or come by in weeks, except the Priests to pass the Sacrament. I KNOW I'm supposed to be happy with who I am regardless of what others do or say, but it sure is a blow to the self esteem to feel friendless, especially when this should be a happy time. And now I am feeling all wallowy and will only get worse if I continue to dwell here, so I am going to work on Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (Let's see if I can beat Angel, who has gotten ahead of me since I've been playing spider solitaire too much)...